Our relationship.

This is what I sent him through MSN today.


my care for u is invisible,then might as well i totally invisible from u la
 okla
 from now on i dnt find u
 u are totally happy person now
 u wont feel tired at all now
 i ady make changes to care u
 u stil cnt see it
 u forever wont notice me de rite?
 forever i dnt care for u but u care for me rite
 i really did my best le
 i really dono wad is CARE FOR YOU
 let me finish it
 finish le i jiu go away from u le
 u happy le\
 last time u said my msg all bLaming u
 u check ur msg inbox
 which msg i din ask about u de?
 i use my heart to care for u de
 but u din see it
 i juz 撒娇say u din find me
 u jiu throw ur temper on me le
 say me Blame u le
 wad wrong hav i done?
 last time de u not like tis de
 even u form 6 stpm oso u wil call me EVERYNIGHT
 see ur changes now?
 u say i too 主动 ?
 u dnt like tis type of girl rite?
 i am cheap for u now rite?
 now u hav me le, u think im not important le rite?
 u dnt hav to care for my feeling le?
 can u pls ask urself
 do u really care for me
 i know u exam
 but b4 sleep one gd night msg oso so hard to send to me?
 after wake up one morning msg oso cnt send to me?
 tis morning when i sms u, u ady wake up de
 y eveyrday must i find u 1st?
 i cnt feel u
 i really need u
 do u realise everytime we at different place jiu argue de?
 know why?
 coz when we both at kampar oso i keep stick to u de
 so i dnt make noise
 when we at diff place only i realise i am the one who always 主动
 then i sure ask u to phone me la, say u miss me la
 coz i wan to let myself feel good a bit\
 coz i think that my boyfriend does not put me in his important place in his heart
 he duwan to listen to me
 tats y i ask him to tell me he miss me, coz i know he wont 主动 tell me he love me, or miss me
 he say if always talk jiu meaningless le
 but the problem is he din talk at all
 he din let his girlfren feel his love
 i know love can be action, not only words
 but wad did u do to show me u love me?
 do u know how desperate am i?


I know how shameful it is. I just do not care now. I just want to post it here. 
My dear, do you know how painful is my heart? Do you realize how hurt am I? I am crying so badly and struggling because your love cannot be replaced by anyone nor any event. It is hard for me.